Emotionally unstable

I don't know why I feel this way about you. I mean nothing to you, but yet I have a soft spot for you.

Can I emotionally check out of everything I feel for you or anyone else around me?

Is there something which can make me forget all that I currently feel? I wish I could stop all the emotions, which can lead no where.

I know I substitute how I used to feel for J, to everyone around me. I am just projecting my feelings to everyone.

Please make me forget how I used to feel and how I feel now.