Why did I choose to stand back and let you live your life, when it killed me inside? Perhaps I started to loving you, and I choose to let you go, if it made you happy. I never thought I would fall for someone like you. 





I hate myself for allowing myself to begin falling in love with you. 


If only you knew how much it tears me up inside. If I meant anything to you. Talk to me.  

Hanging on......

Why hang on to all the lost hope in the world when there is so much more out there? Perhaps we hang around waiting for that beauty in that person to shine through, to prove us wrong. But we need to realise, that some people will never be as beautiful as we once saw them. 




"Sometimes we waste too much time to think about someone who doesn't even think about us for a second" - Wiz Khalifa

I am not okay, okay

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I know that I need to know, but yet I feel so afraid of knowing the truth from you. You made me feel what no one has been able to do over the past 4 years, but you also made me feel what I avoided feeling.

I'm not okay. I am barely okay.

Almost lover

Always my favorite song, when I am going through a heartbreak - "Almost Lover" by A Fine Frenzy.......................


Your fingertips across my skin
The palm trees swaying in the wind, images
You sang me Spanish lullabies
The sweetest sadness in your eyes, clever trick

Well, I'd never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?

So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

We walked along a crowded street
You took my hand and danced with me in the shade
And when you left you kissed my lips
You told me you would never ever forget these images, no

Well, I'd never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?

So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot try the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind

So you're gone and I'm haunted
And I bet you are just fine
Did I make it that easy to walk
Right in and out of my life?

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Why can't you just let me be?

So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

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I'll Stand By You

"Tears are in your eyes
Come on and come to me now
Don’t be ashamed to cry
Let me see you through
’cause I’ve seen the dark side too
When the night falls on you
You don’t know what to do
Nothing you confess
Could make me love you less


So if you’re mad, get mad
Don’t hold it all inside
Come on and talk to me now
Hey, what you got to hide?
I get angry too
Well I’m a lot like you
When you’re standing at the crossroads
And don’t know which path to choose
Let me come along
’cause even if you’re wrong

I’ll stand by you
I’ll stand by you
Won’t let nobody hurt you
I’ll stand by you
Take me in, into your darkest hour
And I’ll never desert you
I’ll stand by you"


Why did you have to make me feel all the emotions I have worked so hard to avoid?

"In the heart are three emotions - I felt them then: love, fear and hatred. I could see that an individual could only have one of the three at a time. When you were in love you knew no fear or hatred. When you were fearful, there was no possibility of love or hate. And when there was hate, there was only hate."

Excerpt from “The Last Vampire” by Christopher Pike. 

I wanna scream at you for breaking my heart when you promised me that you would not. I want to hit you till my arms are exhausted so that you would feel part of the pain I am going through. If you were in pain, you could have talked to me, communicate your feelings. You literally left me crippled all over again. Are you proud of how you handled the situation? Perhaps I was right about you being too young for me. Why did I ever consider the possibility of being with you? You were never ready. I was. I was ready to be committed. I was. I am now preparing myself for the longest part of my journey - to heal myself whole.

I'll miss you, but I can't stay

If I could speak to you one last time, that would be to know what happened to us. After that, you are allowed to walk away, as I will not be staying for you. 


The disappointment I have felt over the past two weeks have thrown my life into a chaos, and I was so blinded by your charm. Nevertheless, you taught me an important lesson. You clearly showed me why you have remained single all these while, and I am glad I could see that early on. 


I tried, I really did even if I never showed it. You gave up on me a little too early. 


It's sad to know, that you leave me the choice of giving up on you, when I truly believed in you. 

Right now - this is how I feel

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Disappoint

You disappointment more than I would have ever imagined. It feels like you lied the entire time.

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Where are you?

I just miss you, I miss you so much that I have to cry so I don't feel all alone. I cannot afford to fall for you when you are showing me you don't care. 


It's been so difficult to tell myself that I have to let you go in order to save myself from anymore pain. 


Please come back to me soon, or watch me walk away, Dannie. 

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Don't say the words which I might end up believing. You asked me if I was ready, but perhaps you are not. It already has begun hurting me, and it is sad to see myself whithering away. 


Once, I thought you would be a mistake I was willing to make, but now you have becoming my biggest 'what if'. I just thought.....you would be different. Well, you are. It's baffles me how you manage to break my heart before things get serious.


I hate to tell myself this, but you would need to watch me as I go. I desired to know you, but these days I don't seem to know you anymore.

Source: http://xxmeagainsttheworld.tumblr.com/

The idea of me

Call me paranoid, but I am beginning to believe that you are not in love with me, just the idea of me. I just thought that perhaps we could move forward from this and explore where we could be, but you give me all the doubts I need to question myself.