Telling Myself

I hate to tell myself this when I usually never believe in such things. But but but, this is almost like fate. There are so so many thing intertwined to be similar, and yet again he proves me right. Maybe it is just God whom proved me right.

Freaking the hell outta me - literally.

Dear God, five me the strength to accept the things I cannot change.

WAIT WAIT WAIT.

It should be "Dear God, give me some strength to stop avoiding his look or presence".

And what the hell am I doing..............first, it started out with the Malay dude, then I chatted casually with the Indian dude and today I grasp on his group seems to be growing - my latest accomplishment is to basically "chat" to his closest senior. Ok......and I trying to establish a freaking relationship with the whole group before I move in, on to him?

I hated it - everytime I stood up. Every time I stand, I see a blank screen. Every time, I glance at the glass for a reflection - I see someone else.

This freaking infatuation is making me a freak. If only emotions were so simple to control, I would cork all my feelings up like in a bottle and toss it.

Back to more sane issues - trying to decide on where my focus should be:-

i) BMW 3 series (E90 or E92)

ii) Volkswagen Golf GTi

Setting the target for cars a bit tooooooooo high at the current stage.

At the same time, the target for my career has bumped up slightly as well.

It's a good motivation. =)

jY