Could You Ever ?

Commitment phobia might not be the reason for fear,

I know I will warm up to the idea of having someone,

Slowly, possible, and never impossible.

It may be a fear of losing it all over again,

It could be due to the feeling of getting bored,

Bored of the relationship, you and probably myself.

Could I have ever wanted to save any of the previous relationships?

It would mean nothing more to preserve one in particular,

Which was filled with the attention and care I needed.

Attention deficit disorder would summarize the who issue,

Boredom, which can hit at any moment with me,

The emotional rollercoaster will not be of a help either.

Would you think it is possible for me to have a stable emotional relationship?

Fickle minded I definitely am,

Chaotic would probably be on that list of characteristics I am.

How can you possibly put up with me, when I can't stand myself?

Please don't ask me to change as no one can,

Although love may actually change me.

I need to know, can you promise to be patient,

How long can you hold up for with my depression issue?

Would you promise to give me the space and air I crave?

Can you continue to hold my fragile heart, which is nothing like diamond but sand?